Silence

Purpose and Meaning

· · · Purpose · · ·Many studies have found that people who feel a sense of purpose live longer and with more joy. It’s then asserted that we must each find our purpose in order to be happy in life. But… ❝ Why do you introduce purpose?Purpose implies movement, change, a sense of imperfection. God does not aim at beauty — whatever he does is beautiful. Would you say that a flower is trying to be beautiful? It is beautiful by its very nature. Similarly God is perfection itself, not an effort at perfection.❞~Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj Is purpose what

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Proprioceptive Now

Fascia, the connective tissue that holds all the bits of our body in place, is the body’s largest sense organ. As such, fascia provides continual feedback regarding where each of our body’s parts is located in space. To operate effectively, we have to learn to listen to those signals; this is called proprioceptive awareness. Accurately understanding the information from the fascia takes practice, and developing healthy movement patterns that work with our tissues in a fluid dance rather than disintegrated forcing may take years. What I find incredibly fascinating is how similar proprioception is to consciousness, and with a little

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The Power of Now

Always And already Intensely present There is only Now ㅤ Before the senses Before thought or feeling Without words or labels Notice what is ㅤ All happenings All experience Colour and dress Consciousness at rest ㅤ Peaceful Infinite Unchanging Happiness itself ㅤ Now Namaste, ✌️ ∙ 🌱 ∙ 🙏 ~~ This is my personal journey—a soulful sojourn in which I share musings arising in and from self-inquiry. I don’t always go into all the characterising details; To me, such minutiae carry more value when explored as pointers in investigation occurring in both silence and when teased out through vulnerable conversation.

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Now

How many Now’s in the past hour, this day, this week, this life? One, only one, Now. Being only Now, it’s the same Now as yesterday, last week, at birth. Now, always knowing, Now. Namaste, ✌️ ∙ 🌱 ∙ 🙏 ~~ This is my personal journey—a soulful sojourn in which I share musings arising in and from self-inquiry. I don’t always go into all the characterising details; To me, such minutiae carry more value when explored as pointers in investigation occurring in both silence and when teased out through vulnerable conversation. The purpose is to share some insights that may

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Vulnerability

noun 1. openness or susceptibility to attack or harm: 2. willingness to show emotion or to allow one’s weaknesses to be seen or known; willingness to risk being emotionally hurt: I’ve realised lately that while I thought vulnerability was one of the scariest internal experiences I know, when I really dive into it I find a deeper aspect. It is one of the most beautiful and exciting aspects of life. The definitions above point mostly to the unnerving facets—susceptibility to attack, risk of being hurt, weaknesses. Showing emotion is an interesting rabbit hole. There was a time when I quite

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Longing

❝ If you look at all our wisdom traditions and our literary and artistic heritages, across the world, across the centuries, they have been teaching all this time that the bittersweet side of existence is a way to creativity, it’s a way to connection, it’s a way to transcendence.❞~Susan Cain Several core themes in Rich Roll’s conversation with Susan Cain (RRP #699) landed as bull’s-eyes for me, stirring something that’s both beautiful and painful. The bittersweet essence of quiet aching gripped me early in this life. As a child, introverted sensitivity was evident as I shun assemblage and found solace

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Awareness Oriented

❝ Questions are just as important as answers. The goal is not necessarily to arrive at an absolute answer. The goal is to improve the quality of your questions. The quality of your question determines the quality of your answer.❞ When I searched for the source of this quote, something very peculiar jumped out at me. I say ‘at me’ because what I found is in stark contrast to how I experience the message. Pause for a moment. What do you perceive as the core tenet? For the time being, I’ll disregard the underlying question that’s begged, how to define

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ātmā́naṃ viddhi — know thyself

ātmā́naṃ viddhi — know thyself

I’ve been feeling a lot of sorrow lately. It’s an existential mourning stemming from one view I have of the world, a few life items and my personal development that sometimes seems to stagnate. Actively trying to let go of lamenting and frustration is helpful but it’s ultimately still a type of doing rather than being. The idea that I have to drop old conditioning provides focus for the mind but it eventually creates tension with the increasing effort needed to separate subject and object. All attempts to discard the patterns of sadness and anguish lead, sooner or later, to

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Peace

❝ Peace is not an objective experience. It is simply the presence of Consciousness without an object. That is why it is peaceful! ❞ ** Even as I deeply feel the truth of Rupert Spira’s quote, I simultaneously encounter grasping for objects (in order to acquire Peace). The mind believes that certain objects have previously produced Happiness and Peace. But memory falsely attributes the source of the experience. Happiness is our very nature. Peace is inherent in presence. Objects are a part of the expression of Peace and Happiness, not the origin.ㅤReminding myself of this connection is an almost daily

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Ritual

It’s been almost three years since I last lined up at an athletic start line. A lot has happened since then, perhaps most of all internally. Unsurprisingly, there are different movement patterns appearing this time around. On the morning of race-day while sitting in meditation, I notice that the mind is generating more noise than what I discern on most mornings. Discord reverberates through the body as anxiety. Like a tap on the shoulder, a question arises; “Who, or what, was there before the mind’s gesticulations?” By turning attention towards the underlying, or real, nature of experience—that which is independent

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Crucible

I often feel disappointed that I can’t push this body as hard as I’d like to do. I question sometimes my ability to achieve some of my athletic goals. But what always stands out is gratitude for learning and experiencing. I inquire, enquire, search and experience; the result is that I’m ultimately thankful for this crucible. I’ve been to the edge of giving up an endurance path. It’s a lot of friggin work and requires a constant commitment to integrity. But my health is ultimately far better than it would have been had I stopped walking this route. Physically, metabolic

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Is It True

❝ Many of our ideas and beliefs about ourself and the world are so deeply ingrained that we are unaware that they are beliefs and we take them, without questioning, for the absolute truth.❞ ~Rupert Spira Why not investigate these thoughts and beliefs? Why not look closely at the experience of them? Why not enquire into the consciousness of those experiences? Why not become aware of the consciousness? Why not find out who is investigating, looking, enquiring and being aware? Allow me to explain. Perhaps it’s my rebel nature or an undying curiosity that beckons like an enduring echo. But

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How

❝ How you do anything is how you do everything.❞ I first heard this quote in a Rich Roll podcast with Buddhist monk Wu De (#RRP 151). The underlying teaching is that if one is sloppy or living without integrity in one area of life it bleeds over into how one is in the rest of life. I’ll provide the context below and then muse on it. ❝ You can tell a lot about a person by the way they treat their shoes. Whatever you think defines you, the fact of the matter is that at the end of your

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Already Home

It’s become a bit clearer of late. What I seek, what I’ve always sought, so much closer than ever imagined. Throughout my life there’s been a sense of something, an undercurrent that I couldn’t quite put my finger on—a constant, “What is that?”, like an apparition always in the periphery. Occasionally there’d be glimpses. I’d feel respite, then the doing and striving would start up again, the dreamed character leaving home to find home. A habit pattern entrenched so deeply. Peace, happiness and quiet—endlessly longed for—always just out of reach. Slowly dawn arises. The true message in the moments behind

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Sense of Being

Sitting quietly, where is the focus? Listening to Life or to thoughts? The mind is a miraculous tool, no doubt. But it’s also a random noise generator. It weaves fantastical dances that mesmerise and entrance. It distracts the senses, instating its machinations as truth. Beliefs laid overtop of Reality lead to searching, not Being. Pausing, listening, feeling, Life’s ongoing artwork becomes evident—a continuous creation of colours, scents, touch, tastes and sounds, ever-present in an endless array of magnificence. ∙ The sound of rain drizzling as a background canvas for varying pitches in birdsong.∙ The scent of flowers and trees, so intense

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